One year ago today I was laying in a hospital bed with my mouth wired shut, my cheeks puffed up, a suction tool in my mouth and an oxygen mask on my face, with a white board as my only means of communication. It's been an interesting road, but I never imagined a year would go by so fast.
Tonight at dinner I ate a couple of carrots. It had been a while since I had tried because I would get pain afterwards. It's been about three hours since dinner and I can feel discomfort on the upper right joint by my ear. I guess I will wait a little bit longer.
My lower lip and chin remain numb with no changes for quite sometime. I wonder if the feeling will come back. The numbness in the chin I can live with, but I miss feeling a normal kiss. It causes a great bit of inner sadness that many probably don't know about. I have days where I wish I never done it for that very reason. I'm very curious to see where I will be a year from now. And I hold hope that I will be able to have full feeling back, at the very least in my lower lip.
